(Pictures of Me and my sister behind me Go Carting on top and my boys when they see my husband come home from work on bottom... This is me living life in today)Alright so it's been forever since I've spoken through my finger tips and I've decided to dump a bit more on this page.. I have been living my life trying to find out who I am.. HA... hahahaha... HA HA!! Well what does it matter... if I'm not living in the Right now?? I've been focusing on who I was to find out who I am.. well yes the was matters a little bit but it really doesn't make up who I am now... (my own realization here) So I just got back from a Land Mark Forum.. It's actually pretty cool it's a seminar that I checked out because a close friend of mine suggested it to me.. I went and I actually enjoyed myself and met some amazing people.. EVERYONE has issues and trials right?? OF COURSE they live here on earth!! They're human !! I have come to realize that I don't need to live in the past.. or worry about my future but to live in the NOW and by doing so I'm creating an awesome tomorrow! I have had My AH HA!! Phew it's about time!! So I have felt at peace for... well...no not for a moment but since that night at the forum.. that was Tuesday and today is the Saturday after so it's been 4 whole Days of peace.. How cool is that?? I haven't worried over any small stuff and I actually had a real VEG day and didn't care about the mess that was made or the worry of it... and then that night I cleaned up and made my home beautiful.. it took no time.. it was amazing usually I freak out on the inside and still can't seem to clean anything up in a short amount of time because I'm just so overwhelmed... with thoughts and emotions.. but now..no.. I have none of that.. I have found who I am and I have finally let go of the waste that I've been holding onto.. it's amazing the change that I've felt and my family has even noticed.. it's wonderful!! I haven't even done the course for the Landmark Forum yet but I plan to.. and I look forward to bettering myself more.. I am living life how it is supposed to be... it's amazing and beautiful and I have found joy in sooo many things over the last few days.. I found my awakening.. and I really don't see why I have to let that go.. EVER!! Why hold on to your past?? That doesn't mean you have to forget the good.. or the bad.. it just means you don't have to keep that STORY and FOCUS all energies on that. It just means that you can close that door(with the window to look back on) but not open it to let in the emotion and stress from it.. Ahhhh how nice.. YAY so today I'm going to get up/dress/ and decorate my home for Halloween!! HAHAHA I love this time of year.. to breath in the crisp Autumn air and the smell of fresh fallen leaves and damp ground. Today I choose to Love today! :D
